When my gaze maneuvers through the intangible, a warm touch hits my eyelids exposing the mere physical impression. When every cell of my body engages itself in the pursuit of seeing the unseen, my search for Him reveals His beauty, layer by layer, as I await to embrace His flawless yet unseen existence. There I find myself blended with the one true soul. I ask myself; is this the epitome of my fervent love with Him?
How can it not be when in His light of companionship and guidance, my body, blood and soul altogether dance and make merry with such passion that can’t be achieved even in my wildest imaginations? With Him, I sing and dance on the music of universe in harmony with the beats of my heart and soul. I smile and cherish the joys of His existence in me and there I realize that I have come from Him and I belong to Him. He is unseen but how can it not be the epitome of romance and ardent love for Him.
I have found Him nowhere but in me, within me, blended with every cell of my muscle, in every drop of my blood, in every thump of my heart, in my sights and imaginations, in my dreams and imagery, in my cries and laughter, in my yesterday and today, in my now and then, in my birth and death, in my life and hereafter. I do not know His name or where has He come from or where does He reside yet I know Him cell by cell.
Although He is an unseen beauty yet I see Him through the window of my heart. Behold and don’t scold me for sneaking into His sanctuary for I haven’t broken any walls. How can I break any wall when the window is wide open? I don’t shut the window of my heart to Him because if I did, I’m afraid that I’ll become one of you who have built huge walls of ignorance and indifference towards Him. Oh you ignorant human, don’t you see how bleak and dark have you painted Him?
The darkness you have welcomed will soon rip the roots out of your true existence and you will be left with no reason to live. These roots keep you green just like a tree puts out fresh roots when the leaves become yellow. But you are so content with love that makes you weaker and yellow.
Ever pondered, what is it that dwells in a true and spiritual man free from all the chaotic noise made in the names of cultures, faiths and beliefs, and at most in the name of their loyalty to the religion they are born into? No man is capable of receiving those answers unless he is in the sincere attempts to understand what real treasures this universe holds for him. But seems like man is at peace when he is ignorant and barbaric.
This world has given enough evidence for that matter. Evidence of our rampant materialistic approach for personal gains, of terror and pain we inflict upon others in the hatred of our animosity, the harm we wreak to gain our conservative and filthy satisfactions, of the agony, jealousy, intolerance, and of our nasty games to put others down. Ironically, this is the real world we live in yet we claim that we are the best human kind with the best religious, moral and ethical values. And we expect to be awarded with the highest rewards.
We give so little and ask for more, share so less and expect high, give pain and seek joy, our contempt towards those who don’t belong to us is a mere disdain while theirs’ is a blasphemy when it’s in reality a reflection of our own deeds. Our sin is virtuous and theirs’ is wickedness that can’t be forgiven at any cost? Because we can’t just compromise with the set of our so-called divine values and rules we have fabricated all along our lives without knowledge and understanding but do acknowledge that we live in an oblivion, so dark and irrelevant to the true meanings of human ethics. Ethics, this word now seems an obsolete entity.
No terror is wicked enough than the cries of hundreds and thousands of innocent people who get murdered due to this ignorance. No pain is excruciating enough than the pain of starving in hunger and thirst while others dine at the ravished tables adorned with excessive amounts and varieties of food and drinks. No sight is piercing enough than the sight of a parent struggling day and night on the streets barefooted, at times naked, while others live a lavish life and don’t even bother to look around because they’re afraid some needy parent might ask for a helping hand!
What else should it be called other than darkness and ignorance and yet you call yourself a sophisticated and enlightened being. Alas, you are one ignorant soul in a fragile body.
Get weary of what you have become, be with those who help your being, don’t sit with indifferent people whose breath comes cold out of their mouths, erase the dark colors and let the bright rays fall upon you. Let yourself be enlightened with His true and omnipresent existence, let Him kiss you and let the window of your heart shine with His reflection. Be the mirror of His reflection and see through yourself.
I have seen Him in him, I have known Him through him, and it is him I find myself blended with. He has become me and myself no more exists.
